In fact it has been a long time since I have taken a little bit of time for myself. It would be an understatement to say that a lot has been going on in my life. I keep thinking that life will slow down one of these days, but I am beginning to realize it probably won't. So today I am going to get a hair cut. I don't plan on doing anything too crazy, but I guess we shall see. I am feeling a little emotional about the whole thing. It's not like this is the first time I have gotten my hair cut. It is obviously about something much more than just hair. I guess it is somewhat about the fact that I am going to get my hair cut and the one person I want to show my new cut to isn't here anymore. I know she is looking down on me. Probably saying, "it will look great". But it just isn't the same. So I am covered up. With hair, with emotions, with the need to talk to my mom. Sigh, here we go.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Covered Up
I am all covered up. Covered up in hair that is. I haven't had a hair cut in at least a year. 
In fact it has been a long time since I have taken a little bit of time for myself. It would be an understatement to say that a lot has been going on in my life. I keep thinking that life will slow down one of these days, but I am beginning to realize it probably won't. So today I am going to get a hair cut. I don't plan on doing anything too crazy, but I guess we shall see. I am feeling a little emotional about the whole thing. It's not like this is the first time I have gotten my hair cut. It is obviously about something much more than just hair. I guess it is somewhat about the fact that I am going to get my hair cut and the one person I want to show my new cut to isn't here anymore. I know she is looking down on me. Probably saying, "it will look great". But it just isn't the same. So I am covered up. With hair, with emotions, with the need to talk to my mom. Sigh, here we go.
In fact it has been a long time since I have taken a little bit of time for myself. It would be an understatement to say that a lot has been going on in my life. I keep thinking that life will slow down one of these days, but I am beginning to realize it probably won't. So today I am going to get a hair cut. I don't plan on doing anything too crazy, but I guess we shall see. I am feeling a little emotional about the whole thing. It's not like this is the first time I have gotten my hair cut. It is obviously about something much more than just hair. I guess it is somewhat about the fact that I am going to get my hair cut and the one person I want to show my new cut to isn't here anymore. I know she is looking down on me. Probably saying, "it will look great". But it just isn't the same. So I am covered up. With hair, with emotions, with the need to talk to my mom. Sigh, here we go.
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I can't imagine that feeling. i have a great phone relationship with my mom and i call her on my way home from work every day. in person, we fight. i don't get it. but i know that i will miss my "friend" when she's gone even if she annoys the crap out of me in person. post pics of new haircut.
ReplyDeleteIt must be this depressing weather or something because I'm having one of those days too. Jaxon and I were visiting my grandparents today and she has a bear that claps and sings patty cake. For some reason it completely took me off guard when she pushed the button to play it.
ReplyDeleteYour mom taught Jaxon how to clap and sing along to it and it made me pretty emotional. It's silly how something as simple as patty cake bring back so many loving memories yet make me so sad!
By the way...whatever you do with your hair it will look great! You could get the Billy Ray Cyrus mullet and rock it! ;p (I really do like it long though but I'm sure it probably gets in the way.) Can't wait to see it. :)
I am learning that you just never know how long you have with the people you love. If over the phone is the best relationship you can have with your mom, then I say, make the best of it! I will post a pic of the new hair cut on the next blog. ;-)
ReplyDeleteOh I hear you! I have those moments all through out my day. Sometimes I think, "oh I need to ask mom about that." And then bam it hits me. sigh.
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